The Sea Girl
Girl from the sea
You can never return
The waves they may call you
But it’s no longer your home
And though this is not
Your native land
You’ll walk on these paths
Stretch out your hand
You already know
That you’re called to stay
Until such time as you’re called away
But don’t give up hope
The sun it will rise
And you’ll drink in the day
The water still runs
And pulls at your feet
[It's not done... it's kinda my Dag character...]
Divine Conspiracy
Burning up the land behind you
With the flashing blaze of glory
Somehow though you are left
The quiet figure in the shadows
No image to cling to
But I have got a glimpse
Of the coming glory
Can smile in this plan
The royalty in rags
With no crown to cling to
You gave up the crown
Gave up your home
And came down here
For me
No love to cling to
[It was indeed a Divine Conspiracy, Griffin. Sorry this isn't done yet, but such is life.]
Pall of Death
How do you see yourself?
Under the pall of death?
You have meant life to me this long year
I don’t have words to thank you
But I think you’d know what I’d like to say
If there is ever
anything
If there is
ever
anything
You know that I would come.
And you know the reasons why when I can’t.
If death has touched you
And I know it has
It’s left you vibrantly, stubbornly alive
That’s really something else though
The life buried deep inside you
If there is ever anything
You know I’ll be there.
[5.9.09]
Quiet
Keep the beauty quiet
Keep the love so silent
The less you show the less they’ll know
’cause they can’t take what they can’t see
Your walls are so thick
Your eyes are so guarded
The less you show the less they’ll know
’cause they can’t take what they can’t see
Everything is broken
Every touch hurts
The less you show the less they’ll know
And they can’t take what they can’t see
Here you go, it’s a new day
There is a difference in this pain
You can learn to let it go
Let it go and be set free
Hush, love
Precious one
Be close, breathe
And know you’re safe
[6.14.09]
CLAY
It’s a crowded bunch of colorful shirts
I’ve watched these kids grow up
Their names flit across my heart –
Richard. Aubrey. Anna. Daniel.
Traveled a thousand miles
Wandered in the garden
Gotten lost in museums
Still do I pray and wish their well-being
Yet I am a pilgrim here
Watching. Remembering
I too played here. Grew up here.
A few hours a week
Which helped hold me to sanity
May it be the same for them.
Yes, this is the real world
But it is a small piece
I hope that their hearts survive
These hard highschool years
Long enough to get beyond
But my own soul cries out
Aching in knowing the pain that awaits
Oh, my precious children
You will be given
A thousand times more than you can bear
And your heart will break
Beneath the sickness and the pain.
You will be beyond
All of this ducking and dodging
Light and laughter
But I pray it remains warmth in your heart
Pulling you back to Him.
J’Dak
He was lost to the land and it mourned for the gap
Washed from their lives in a second of time
Around their heartache, hope grew up
But ever and always the pain of the loss
Of the son of the light who was gone from their lives
Seasons slipped past before he returned
Fraught with difficulty is the path that leads home
What he had learned could not be undone
For always and ever their world would be changed
By the foe of the light who had come to their lives
Gone are the days of the carefree flight
For never again will you not know care
It may lift from your shoulders for rare moments of peace
But the shadow will be there for all of your life
Someday I know that we’ll soar again
But between then and now lies much darkness
Valleys and mountains by foot to be climbed
Watch the shadows
Watch the wind
Look for chinks in the masks
And be prepared to give your life to heal this…
[This poem chronicles the original beginning of the Lonya trilogy, although the story doesn't really begin there at all. But, J'Dak's story isn't a bad place to start after all.]
Chronicles of the Sky
Green are the skies of Lonya
Laced with the living leaves
Branches locked in a graceful web
Slender and strong
Grown gently old
Smoothed by the hands of the children who hide
Searching for peace in the shade it provides
Lonya, my heart still aches for your green
Clear is the sky above Gazigway
Lit by the light of the beautiful stars
Rays spun into a shimmering net
Fiery diamonds
They sing as they dance
Sought by the eyes of the children who sing
Caught by the promise of peace gently bright
Gazigway, my heart keeps the tune of your light
Boundless the sky above Murnia
Loosed from constraints of all seeming time
Clouds scud across this steady ocean
Clearly lit blue
Turning thundercloud dark
Broken by the feet of the children who run
Cut off from peace by the blood all around
Murnia, my heart’s tears soak into your ground
Hard is the sky over Irwas
Left above the burnt-out dunes
Edges all sharply cutting
Burnished and bronzed
Relentlessly strong
Shaped by the will of the children who strive
Fighting for peace in an unfriendly land
Irwas, my heart laments your lost sands
Majestic the sky above Aynoli
Lightly spread to cover the kingdom
Colors woven in shimmering tapestry
Brilliant and bright
Soaring effortlessly above
Mourned by the tears of the children who know
Lamenting the peace that’s been choked by a lie
Aynoli, my heart will return when you learn how to cry
Lost is the sky above Riscon-Morg
Locked over a prisoning world
Invisible bars of a relentless trap
Stronger than steel
Sprung silently up
Challenged by the hearts of the children who hope
Bringing the peace for which the land groans
Riscon-Morg, my heart claims you as its own
Learning to Hide
Only a few words in
My heart stops, frozen
I feel where this is going
And every word confirms it
Not this story
Not today
The sunshine all turns to rain
The sky above is grey
It was years ago
But it may as well be right now
Your eyes blinded by the darkness
You’d never seen till now
Not so young
Not today
Because once you’ve learned to run
It’s hard to ever stay
You became strong
It was that or break
Forced to grow up too fast
To protect all you could
Not too far
Not today
Because if you hide so well
What if you fade away?
Attempt at Answering
The truth is that I cannot remember
As I cannot remember most of my life
Other paths were indeed open
But not marked for me
I can give you some reasons
But in the end, where else would I have gone?
Shadows wove in with the light
The dancing pattern called me in
I was younger and knew less
Yet it was still me
I do not believe it was accidental
You were on the way I explored
I was not consciously looking
But I enjoyed being with you
It was enough to pull me back
Caught in His guiding hand
Unknowing of what I was seeking
Drawn by what I could not explain
You were close to my place
Watching and waiting
Coming to know
With careful commitment
Invisible dancer
Fading away as attention shifts
You looked into my eyes
For more than I could bear
I knew nowhere else where I could have gone
Compelled to find you
Needing to know you’d be there
Because we are called to communion
Questions about Friendship
I do not understand
No matter how many times I remember
You had so many roads
So many paths you could have gone down
But you stubbornly followed this one
Though you could not see the end
You chose the way deep in shadows
Filled with unnamed challenges
Instead of the open rooms
Well-lit and welcoming
Why did you not enter them instead?
Why did you seek out darkness?
You consciously sought me out
For no reason I can see
You did not know me to know who I was
Why would I have pushed you away?
All who come, come for a reason
Strength enough is always given
I do not fit into a category
So why were you willing to stay?
The disappearing
The silence
The inscrutability
You continued to look for answers
You met my eyes and clung
For as long as you possibly could
Then you kept returning for more
Looking for yourself, looking for me
Needing to know that such will be done
In case one should wander too far